
FINALLY!!!
This Thanksgiving season, I have much to be thankful for. Healthy family, awesome friends, and an abundance of riches supplied by said family and friends.
Saturday morning, early for my Arizona daughter, Carissa, she called me. That was unusual for her and totally out of character. Then to hear her crying sent off all kinds of warning bells, whistles, and klaxons going off in my head. Something awful has happened to her husband, Jaime, or to her!!!
In a whispered voice she said something through the breathless tears. I was ready to get in my car and begin driving to Arizona to be with her. I knew there had to be some bad trouble.
“What?!” is all I could manage at first. Once I got control of my fear I blurted out “Are you alright? What’s the matter with Jaime? Is there something wrong? It’s too early for you to be calling me! What’s the matter?!!” I was snatching off my pajamas and trying to hop into sweat pants one handed, hopping around all over the place and just barely keeping myself from falling down and hitting the walls and door in our bedroom. “Keys, keys…where are my keys?” Joe came in to the room to see what all the noise was about and I told him “Carissa’s crying, something’s wrong. Help me get my clothes on. Get dressed.”
In a barely audible voice I heard Carissa say “Mom. I’m pregnant.” Everything stopped for longer than a heartbeat. I told Joe and we both sat down on the bed. Him with tears, me trying to get my heart rate back to normal.
Joe scared the fool out of me by yelling at the top of his voice “Woo Hoo!” Then it all clicked into focus for me.
Carissa and Jaime have been married for five years. She’s wanted to have a baby for such a long time, and they have tried everything with no success. My poor Rissa. She’s cried till she could cry no more tears. She’s been to a mid wife that told Carissa her uterus was tipped and needed to be righted. After some manipulation and other Latin midwifery things Carissa had her abdomen bound with a cloth and told how to get in and out of bed, up and down from chairs, walk up and down stairs, lifting objects, and other things that would use her abdominal muscles for the next week until the uterus was settled back in the right place.
Carissa and Jaime have gone through some of the expensive fertility treatments, she’s tried to lose weight (which all the doctors told her was her problem), she’s been on an exercise regimen for the past three years that has had a modicum of success with her weight. She’s been diagnosed with PCOS – Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome – and a high insulin level. Treatment was done for that with no success either.
For a time, anyone crazy enough to ask Carissa when she and Jaime were going to have a baby, either received no answer, or the flood gates would open and she’d walk away without saying a word. Carissa felt like she was a failure as a wife and well meaning people only brought that up to her time and again.
I’ve heard all the questions of “Why” in all the variations. Not having an answer for my daughter has been torture for me. I had been in a car accident when I was 18. Doctors told me I would never have children. Within seven months I was pregnant with my first and over the next six years I had a total of four children. How can I answer questions for my precious daughter who can’t have children while I seemed to pop them out right and left. Both of her two older sisters have had children. The unfairness of it all seemed to come crashing down upon Carissa.
The whispered words from Carissa finally made sense to me. Can this truly be happening to her? After all these years and all the different treatments that have failed, can this really be true? She didn’t want to speak the words out loud lest they be false and send her reeling back into her own kind of hell.
She had been experiencing some strange things going on with her body and was not quite sure what it all meant. Before taking her morning shower she decided to do a pregnancy test. It came up POSITIVE. Disbelief at the results and knowing some tests give false positive results she waited a little while and took another test. BOTH of them came up POSITIVE.
Carissa had been trying to get hold of Jaime all morning to tell him the news. He was not answering his phone. She called me to tell me the news so I was the second one to know. I was sworn to SECRECY and told if I blabbed I’d be in deep, deep trouble. I had to pass the admonishment on to Joe to not tell anyone until she gave us the go ahead.
By the end of the day I had text messages from family congratulating me on being Grandma again. So I was freed of my sworn secrecy. It has been plastered all over Carissa’s Facebook page for all the world to know the news.
I’m really happy for Carissa and Jaime. A bit reserved right now in my excitement because I do have some superstitions. There are things I want to do for her…..begin buying diapers, baby clothes, toys, and other things. I’m going to hold off on doing that for a while until I know she is at least four or five months along. Crazy as it sounds, I would feel like it is my fault if anything happens.
I waited that long for Tiffany, too, after we found out she was pregnant with our Simon. He is now two years old and the most adorable little boy this world has ever seen. Course you have to know that this Grandma is prejudice
Plans to get things in order here at home and in our jobs will take place after the five month time frame. Shopping sprees for the new baby, getting our routing on the road to take me to Arizona for the birth of this new child so I can spend the first two weeks with Carissa and Jaime helping them out and making sure she is healing well. Doing all the house work, cooking, laundry so they don’t have to do anything except love on the new one. Course, you know the real reason is so that I can have access to the new baby at all times – day and night
Joe’s back out on the road. I’ll have about three weeks of quiet and I can get my work done without being asked what there is to eat around here, or have to leave the house every day on one errand or another, being asked to watch tv with him. It is good to have him home with me during the winter months. I have to be more dedicated to my tasks and not get so upset when he interrupts me and then I let everything fall to pieces because I use him as an excuse to not do anything
So, that is my news and I’m really excited for Carissa and Jaime. I pray they are blessed with a healthy child. Girl or boy, doesn’t matter as long as it is healthy.